HHH; Paul Michael Levesque <3

where got time

2012-02-17T10:01:00.000-08:00

to train

to go out

to study

to watch Whose Line

to mend hearts

to figure what I want, right now.

...breathe.

2012-02-16T10:11:00.000-08:00

Sliding on the waves together, shirking the world
Throwing away everything that slips out of our hands ,

only brushing the surface
Even a little excess sometimes but not too much
Only what we deserve
To feel good & lively, all we finally have to do is to ..

We are really young & sometimes it's on our too narrow shoulders
That stands the sky's weight, our fingers could touch it
I no longer want to come back home, but actually where's my home ?
What's important is that together we don't forget
That all we have to do is to ..

If life is nothing but a dream then nothing has started
& If nothing has started then we can make everything again

still hanging from a love I lost

2012-02-16T01:43:00.000-08:00

I'm feeling your frustration

that any minute all the pain will stop
Just hold me close inside your arms tonight

don't be to hard on my emotions

Cause I need time
My heart is numb has no feeling
So while I'm still healing just try

and have a little patience

I really wanna start over again
I know you wanna be my salvation
The one that I can always depend
I'll try to be strong believe me
I'm trying to move on
It's complicated but understand me

Cause the scars run so deep it's been hard but I have to believe
Have a little patience

respire

2012-02-15T17:42:00.001-08:00

Obviously, 3megapixel couldn't capture even a quarter of its beauty. Haishhh

Willberforce

2012-02-14T22:37:00.000-08:00

So sad
so sad
it's a sad sad situation

I can live without them

2012-02-09T18:50:00.000-08:00

I don't need your promises if you can't fulfil them

emotional baggages.

2012-02-09T09:24:00.000-08:00

It's such a waste to see that you've had so much potential a particular field, that you've got so much trust entitled to you, that you've got a job on your hands that's only assigned to nobody but you; and you're just throwing it away. Sadly, maybe even handing it over to someone else.

I'm not going to ask you "What are you going to do?" anymore,

that question is highly overrated and the answer I get will never change.

Truth is, sometimes 'staying strong' just makes me weaker.

GET HATS

2012-02-09T06:49:00.001-08:00

let out all your secrets

just can't

2012-02-04T15:32:00.000-08:00

Sometimes, I care about their happiness so much that I don't bother about what I feel inside, just to make them happy. Reality peeks its head telling me that those people may not necessarily do the same for me.

they were all right, I'm just choose not to accept it

2012-02-04T10:03:00.001-08:00

doesn't even matter if our lives were at stake
all you want to do is just win

it's really not PMS

2012-02-04T09:37:00.000-08:00

but my emotions are just really out of place right now
and I don't think that there's a valid reason

take me to the finish line

2012-02-04T07:22:00.000-08:00

the uncanny similarity scares me... :'/

playing video games doing powerpoint slides

2012-02-03T22:09:00.000-08:00

wira

2012-02-03T16:38:00.000-08:00

Congratulations to you, you deserved it.

Now I won't rain on your parade or be selfish anymore,
I know my place

sometimes I wonder why I lie to myself so much

2012-02-03T08:00:00.000-08:00

I tell myself as well as others that I'm fine
when they can clearly see how disappointed I am
no, you don't let me down

I let myself down, time and time again

i never dreamt because i'm just too busy waiting for nothing, and wasting away

2012-02-03T04:48:00.000-08:00

Xams, not xcited

9

2012-02-01T05:42:00.000-08:00

It seems like I'm falling into mumsy's footsteps...hopefully, I'll make it happen this year. With more trainings and preparations, and if the time's right!
On a much unhappier note, tmr's prep is most impt.
C'mon guys lets do ziz

plug it in and turn me on

2012-01-31T07:57:00.000-08:00

yes yes, airbrushed and all

like how every poster and picture is in the media

but I see beauty in everything and everyone

no I don't kiss up or pretend, there's no need to

I just find her really pretty :3

2012-01-31T07:34:00.000-08:00

Feet don't fail me now
Take me to the finish line
Oh my heart it breaks every step that I take
But I'm hoping at the gates
They'll tell me that your mine

Walking through the city streets
Is it by mistake or design
I feel so alone on a friday night
Can you make it feel like home
If I tell you you're mine

It's like I told you honey

Don't make me sad
Don't make me cry
Sometimes love is not enough
And the road gets tough I don't know why

Keep making me laugh
Lets go get high
The road is long we carry on
Try to have fun in the meantime

Come take a walk on the wild side
Let me kiss you hard in the pouring rain
You like your girls insane

Choose your last words
This is the last time
Because you and I
We were born to die

Lost but now I am found
I can see but once I was blind
I was so confused as a little child
Trying to take what I could get
Scared that I couldn't find

We were born to die
We were born to die

I miss you

2012-01-31T06:55:00.000-08:00

so much sometimes that it hurts :/

2012-01-26T17:30:00.000-08:00

Sem 2.2 y u so anal
who knew production work could be such a bitch

cut the skin through the bone, fall asleep all alone, hear your voice in the dark

2012-01-21T11:05:00.000-08:00

I don't know... where to begin.

All I know is that it doesn't end here,

my life will not take that course, I promised it won't.

pieces

2012-01-21T09:19:00.000-08:00

I'm trying to prove them wrong, all the rest who don't believe in me
but why are you making it so hard for me to stay?

2012-01-19T18:29:00.000-08:00

Froyo-ed with Shida last night
I'm glad we had the time
just...appreciative of our friendship
Ria :)

take the time to say your grace

2012-01-16T07:32:00.000-08:00

I'm always afraid

afraid that I'm not strong enough

'cause I know, deep down inside that I can get vulnerable

and am not as strong as I seem

maybe that's why I prefer showing my physicality rather than letting others get inside of me, but what if all that is said hurts me so bad

that it affects the way I perform?

Battered mentally and the paranoia gets to me

not knowing who to trust anymore

then, I'll just fade into oblivion.

sometimes I miss you so much that I can hardly stand it

2012-01-13T18:48:00.000-08:00

down on my knees, thought I was stronger

terrified by those four walls

2012-01-12T17:17:00.000-08:00

we're right

of course we're right

then again, how hypocritical am I?

HANDS OFF SISTA

2012-01-11T08:19:00.001-08:00

OMG IT'S WEEK 12

AFTER WHICH 4 MORE WEEKS TO GO

but it's insane that I can cry

I loved you all along

2012-01-11T08:09:00.001-08:00

one month, it's gonna be okay

just hoping that everything's fine at your side...

I

2012-01-05T05:24:00.000-08:00

look old. (OLDER THAN MY 23 yr old BF WTFUUUUU)

hachoooo

2012-01-04T01:42:00.000-08:00

Not the best start to the new year :(
So much mucus in me ughhh

thanks...for everything

2012-01-01T09:23:00.000-08:00

Dghessesssss
fat fat fetish

red dragon

2011-12-29T23:43:00.000-08:00

hello, young Hannibal.

Gaspard Ulliel - I still think he looks sexier in character, he does it soooo well.

STILL ANTONY HOPKINS, Y U SO GOOD ACTORRRRR

just watched the sequel to Silence of the Lambs, Hannibal, and oh my

"Good Evening...Clarice,"

teehee Dr. Lecter ftw :>

to me, from me.

2011-12-29T00:50:00.000-08:00

'cause being slim is never good enough.

oh no, it doesn't stop just there!

right Z? :3

slow ride - 'cause the last weekend of December had been so sweet, this song is for you my dear.

2011-12-26T18:14:00.001-08:00

Cold as ice
And more bitter than a December
Winter night
That's how I treated you
And I know that I
I sometimes tend to lose my temper
And I cross the line
Yeah that's the truth

I know it gets hard sometimes
But I could never
Leave your side
No matter what I say

Coz if I wanted to go
I woulda gone by now but
I really need you near me
To keep my mind off the edge
If I wanted to leave
I would've left by now
But you're the only one that knows me
Better than I know myself

All along
I tried to pretend it didn't matter
If I was alone
Deep down I know
If you were gone
For even a day I wouldn't know which way to turn
Coz I'm lost without you

I know it gets hard sometimes
But I could never
Leave your side
No matter what I say

I get kind of dark
Let it go too far
I can be obnoxious at times
But try and see my heart
Cause I need you now
So don't let me down
You are the only thing in this world
I would die without

lucky men

2011-12-25T19:15:00.000-08:00

favourite girls, Jillian, Gina and Zuzana

the epitome of lean, strong and simply amazingly sexy

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

you got me so high that I can't get off the clouds

2011-12-24T08:03:00.000-08:00

and I just can't get enough

out with the old, in with the new

2011-12-24T05:05:00.001-08:00

Congratulations to the new committee, you guys have certainly earned your spots and will lead the team well, we trust you guys. I am very, VERY sure that you will do a better job as compared to the previous comm. Make us proud, TPSilat JIWO :)

TMR: Mumsy and daddy's 24th Anni!

HMMMM

me, Yat, stay home day after a tiring camp ytd

Fifa 12

House music

this cannot get any weirder, really

I hope you remember me enough to read this

2011-12-21T10:25:00.000-08:00

just wanna tell you that I still

yes still

miss you and the good times we had

on a slightly lighter note, it's been exactly 2 months, 65k.

NOONE SAID IT WAS GOUNA BE EASY SO WORK HARDER SISTA

lets see what I can achieve when we get to 22nd Jan

remind us all of what could have been

2011-12-20T18:35:00.000-08:00

I can't deny, I do miss you.

so tonight lets be honest, we all want to be wanted

2011-12-20T18:26:00.000-08:00

I'm starting to warm up to them, and will

only be a matter of time till I...

meanwhile...

2011-12-19T19:28:00.000-08:00

we were talking about girls, retail and whatever not till 2 in the morn.

IT'S A CELEBRATION ALL WEEK LONG

2011-12-17T09:24:00.000-08:00

I don't know why but it just is!

From theme-park swimming and awesome hang outs

to movies and bbqueueueues

okay I think I just paused the concentration bit for this week

by accident too.

NO MORE!

but still, yeay Drama BBQ tmr! Gotta love em hoes <3

Balu (over)sexposed

2011-12-17T09:12:00.000-08:00

@ Sufi's w brother Yat and (his) gang

then we went off nunning!

:'(

2011-12-17T09:06:00.000-08:00

People say I'm the life of the party
'Cause I tell a joke or two
Although I might be laughin' loud and hearty
Deep inside I'm blue

So take a good look at my face
You'll see my smile looks out of place
If you look closer it's easy to trace
The tracks of my tears

Since you left me if you see me with another girl
Seemin' like I'm havin' fun
Although she may be cute
She's just a substitute
Because you're the permanent one

So take a good look at my face, uh-huh
You see my smile (looks out of place)
Yeah, look a little bit closer
It's easy to trace, oh the tracks of my tears

Hey hey -yeah
(Outside) i'm masquerading
(Inside) all my hope is fading
(Im just a clown) ooo-yeah, since you put me down
My smile is my make-up
I wear since my break-up with you

Baby, take a good look at my face, uh-huh
You see my smile looks (out of place)
Yeah, just look closer it's easy (to trace)
Oh, the tracks of my tears

2011-12-16T19:21:00.001-08:00

if you're not going to be there for me when I need you the most
then I don't need you here for me ever.

lazy, seriously???????

2011-12-16T10:46:00.000-08:00

tonight, again.

thanks guys.

you know what you want, but how long can you wait?

2011-12-14T05:33:00.002-08:00

you drive me wild,

I'll drive you crazyyyyyy

I HAVEN'T GOTTEN THERE SO DON'T STOP ME

I just took a shower and a whiff of my armpit

MMMMM

smells pretty good

we'll play that funky music all night long

2011-12-14T05:25:00.000-08:00

hi Adam :3

whole lotta love

2011-12-14T05:20:00.000-08:00

it's hasn't been two months

and I'm halfway there

DON'T DIGRESS, DON'T STRAY AWAY FROM THE GOAL

if the next two months go as planned

I would achieve what I wanted, for so long now

and finally

so don't you dare let anything break your concentration!!!!!!

HALFWAY THERE IS NOT THERE YET SO KEEP ON GOING

sweet child o' mine

2011-12-11T19:45:00.000-08:00

OMG WHY SO CUTEEEEEEEEE

feel good

2011-12-11T19:42:00.000-08:00

AIM FOR THE STARS SO IF YOU FALL YOU LAND ON THE CLOUDS

mindovamatter

2011-12-10T01:29:00.000-08:00

Sometimes, you feel that you need something, fact is you just think that way.
Take those thoughts away. Do you still feel the same now?
Like this top, the urge to get was high but once I thought that I didn't need.it, the feeling of getting it died down. This applies to everything in the world...tho results may vary.

OPEN YOUR EYES 'CAUSE ITS ALL RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU

2011-12-10T00:00:00.000-08:00

I don't know what else it would take me to truly realise that I made the wrong choice, to give in once and for all, to not take back my words after having said them.
I guess it's the pride that disallows me from accepting the fact I made a mistake and that the damage is done. And is still going on.
Pride, ego and patience aside, I know that I have to admit defeat sooner or later, 'cause that will be good for me in the long run.
Hidayah what the fuck were you thinking dragging things until now
they were right all along you shldv seen it
For a cynical girl, you're fckg gullible

today, a change!

2011-12-06T18:59:00.000-08:00

I'm full of regret
For all things that I've done and said
And I don't know if it'll ever be ok to show
My face 'round here
Sometimes I wonder if I disappear

Would you ever turn your head and look
See if I'm gone
Cause I fear

There is nothing left to say to you
That you wanna hear
That you wanna know
I think I should go
The things I've done are way too shameful

Your just innocent
A helpless victim of a spider's web
And I'm an insect
Goin after anything that I can get

So you better turn your head and run
And don't look back
Cause I fear

There is nothing left to say
To you
That you wanna hear
That you wanna know
I think I should go
The things I've done are way too shameful

And I've done you so wrong
Treated you bad
Strung you along
Oh shame on myself
I don't know how I got so tangled up

time's running out, I'm almost over the line

2011-12-05T18:16:00.000-08:00

and when its over
and it's gone
you almost wish you had the bad stuff back
so you could have the good

turn away 'cause I need you more, feel my heartbeat in your mind

2011-12-03T18:43:00.000-08:00

something I'd like to try out next year

to prove to others

but most importantly to finally tell my hard-headed self

that I AM CAPABLE!

2011-12-02T11:16:00.000-08:00

I still remember the first time...

don't give up on love, have faith, restart.

2011-11-28T09:21:00.000-08:00

things can't any worse 'cause this is the worst

two guys one cup....of tea

2011-11-24T15:54:00.000-08:00

Let it go,
Just it go.
Remember the importance of your sanity.

film

2011-11-22T23:13:00.000-08:00

We gotta follow the yellow brick road!!

2011-11-21T23:46:00.000-08:00

RadioPro, MultiCam, Film Theory, oh my I will conquer this time round!

penetrate this

2011-11-18T17:39:00.000-08:00

Time to change my mindset
And revert back to the way I was

2011-11-18T08:27:00.001-08:00

when the going gets tough,

I get tougher.

You'll see. This time, it won't come back.

2011-11-18T03:21:00.000-08:00

And I'll show you
and you
and you, and you, and you
especially YOU
of what I'm capable of
'cause come next year, it's all gg to be different.
Maybe not everything, but I want to make sure that
SOME things will.

2011-11-17T04:13:00.000-08:00

got out of bed today and felt a sharp pain on my right ankle

almost the same pain I felt last night

reminds me so much of ....

oh no

I'm done with injuries, so

not again

not ever again!

don't patronize me with your shackles of love

2011-11-16T08:47:00.000-08:00

only you can make things better

make me better

so why won't you?

I keep taking chances and I put myself out here for you

and I want to have you back so badly, but as much as I do

you don't see that you the one who can make things right

maybe

maybe it's time to be realistic

and

open up my eyes to the oblivious fact

that

...

we're all just victims of a crime

2011-11-15T00:36:00.000-08:00

Looking for something that's not there
I'll try my best to shelter the pain inside
but everything has a limit and right now,
I'm closer to the edge than I thought

natural born killer

2011-11-15T00:27:00.000-08:00

I try to please you
I try and try and said I won't stop
but what happens when you can never be satisfied?

no sunshine

2011-11-13T22:44:00.000-08:00

How should I feel w people coming to me in every direction, telling me to do somrthing im unsure of. As much as it seems wrong...how can I not help but feel like it seems right?

You may not believe me but I gave you all I had

2011-11-13T09:52:00.000-08:00

"This is more than goodbye
When I look into your eyes
You're not even there"

I'm asking for your help
I am going through hell
Afraid nothing can save me but the sound of your voice
You cut out all the noise
And now that I can see my stakes so clearly now
I'd kill if I could take you back
But how?

how it's just a feeling

2011-11-13T09:45:00.000-08:00

I can't stop my tears from falling

I try but no matter how cliche it sounds,

I can't stop thinking of you, of everything

I walked away, but not out of your life

I told you never to let me

Don't

don't.

have you?

don't take too long

2011-11-12T08:54:00.000-08:00

don't know what I can keep anymore

2011-11-12T07:50:00.000-08:00

missing some people that don't feel the same way is stupid.

heartfelt but such a waste of feeling.

not going to put my feelings to waste anymore, so I'd rather dwell in my good memories than hope for good things that usually would turn out bad, or worse, being unappreciated or underlooked.

simple days @ Jln Rimau, now those times are worth missing.

things that I can't bring back

2011-11-08T11:30:00.000-08:00

I do miss it. I miss it all.

Some things I just can't explain.

while you guys are busy party rockin'

2011-11-08T10:35:00.000-08:00

I'll make sure from now on I'll be body rocking

same expectations, different motivtion

2011-11-02T09:06:00.000-07:00

I know what I have to do

the competitive side is dying to come out again

but there are restrictions that I will take this time round

and I'll be doing some things for different reasons

nevertheless, expecting a better outcome

for myself, and everyone else

'cause it's either

I go all the way, or don't go at all!

Team Raleigh

2011-11-01T03:59:00.001-07:00

tough times don't last, tough people do
HAHAHA ZAMAN O LEVELS

it's unhealthy,

2011-10-31T09:33:00.000-07:00

still wished you knew everything I had to say

and how I felt, 'cause for the first time they were all true

but maybe I put it all on the table with my guard down

to get ripped apart

and I'll understand if we're just not meant to be

or meant to be like this.

life goes on, either way

some things I take lightly, some to heart

sadly I've grown ignorant to some things as well

just for the sake of safeguarding my heart

but not everyone's the same, that I know

and I'm learning

to care

to cry

to lose

to win

to follow

to lead

to live

to love

to keep holding on and move on.

wished I brought my tripod tho'

2011-10-29T12:45:00.000-07:00

with no apologies, don't stay

2011-10-29T04:37:00.000-07:00

Aces High, I dwell in my memories for so long that they've come to haunt me

far away from here

2011-10-28T11:43:00.000-07:00

I remembered the first thing I wanted to set my eyes upon was the deep blue sky, extremely tough to be able to see in SG. So cold, perspiring was a privilege.

2011-10-27T10:17:00.000-07:00

History that dates back centuries, magnificent monuments, beautiful views, breathtaking sceneries and the most amazing array of bread (yes I am talking about the dough, don't judge), having a gist of Finland, Germany and France in just a mere 10 days have been wonderful. Can't forget the mornings we were late getting into the bus, gobbling breakfast that we sneaked out of the hotel restaurants and freezing our Singaporean arses in the cold weather, also the nights spent hanging out in random chosen hotel rooms (Murderer, Bluff, Babi2, CIRCLE OF DEATH) all lasted through only a single pack of cards, instant maggi suppers, and of course just enjoying each others company (also paitao-ing in the last-night-in-Paris-thon-session) but we all had a good time.

Temperature down to 0˚C, LTT, Airbus, Concorde, internet deprived, free adult movies after 12mn (HAHA), BMW, Porche, "The Wifi Restaurant", extremely long and restless bus rides, Heidelberg Castle", freezing at the 2nd tier of the Eiffel Tower, losing my Jack @ Cologne, 1am train ride from Stuttgart to Paris, peeing in random hotels, lost chocolates, playing pool at Magic Circus Hotel that costs 4Euros, waiting for Khalid for over 20 minutes, pickpockets, Disneyland, last minute shopping, EURO TRAINING, watching school of rock (abeh member tido), THE MOULIN ROUGE, awesome jumpshots, getting lost in The Louvre, 15 flight hours, strangers to friends.

If I could redo those 10 days, I would. :)

amidst all the rocking in hotel rooms

2011-10-27T09:56:00.000-07:00

blog's getting too wordy

no no no

time to look at something refreshing

where is it

where is it now

oh yes, here we are @ Heidelberg

and belum tanam eh, just haven't had the time to upload em allz

2011-10-27T09:31:00.000-07:00

Took me so long to finally find some time to sit down and

read the stop press.

Yes, every page of it, excluding the Mandarin parts of course.

Suddenly, seeing all that my coursemates have done in the past time

of our 3-year course have made me realize how deep they have ventured

into the media industry, and how far I'm left behind.

Thing is...I don't know if I should even step up at all, not saying that

the media doesn't interest me (if not I wouldn't be in this course at all)

but that I don't know if this is the field that I'd like the pursue in the future.

I'm not complaining, yet I know I shouldn't be this calm about it all.

My forte? Awhile ago I thought I knew, but I really have no clue.

I'm guessing being 18 isn't what it's cut out to be, it has it's

fair share of responsibilities too.

2011-10-22T23:54:00.000-07:00

something went terribly wrong somewhere

'cause now it looks like I've got the worst timetable for school EVER

and French is not the subject I wanted to take

AND SCH ADMIN DEPT IS NOT OPEN ON SUNDAYS

okay calm down

let's see what I can do

don't know if you'll be reading this, but there's only one you. no substitutes, never will be.

2011-10-21T12:11:00.001-07:00

Knowing you was great

then you made me fall in love with you

and every passing day makes me fonder of you

now you're the first thing on my mind, always

and I want to make you smile and laugh and be the one

to take care of you

keeping you happy and content and making sure that I'll always be there

but life gets in the way and I tend to screw things up

I don't talk to you

I ignore you when I'm upset

I constantly have other commitments

I leave you for 10 days

I have feelings

I don't have enough time to spend with you

in other words, I'm not good enough for you.

It's hard to leave someone whom you grew fond of,

but harder to live with someone who you think deserves better.

'cause those 30 days are never going to happen.

Or it'll carry on forever.

But I never want it to happen

not now, not for a day, not for ever

so only time will tell when you're gonna do what you have to.

With us.

2011-10-21T12:10:00.000-07:00

if you didn't want me back, you're not the only one

Helsinki to Hamburg to Stuttgart to Cologne to Heidelberg to Paris and back!

2011-10-10T23:56:00.000-07:00

well...today's the day!

you're supposed to be the only one who knows that

2011-10-08T23:11:00.000-07:00

September's ended awhile ago and truly, my mind's now awake.
But why am i talking to a freaking cleverbot

don't bring me down.

2011-10-08T07:23:00.000-07:00

It's sad to see the holidays coming to an end as the days pass by, knowing that there's much to accomplish and even more that's expected.

Lately, many things worry the pants out of me.
Although, not like it hasn't before.
The future, my parents, education, life
and everything in between.
I guess there's no time for silly things 'cause we only live once,
and I guess it's up to me to make a stand
to make sure that I, don't mess my life up.

So I've been thinking...

chocolate sundaes on a cold Thursday night

2011-10-06T09:01:00.000-07:00

took a dive, but I

can't let your words hurt me anymore

trip snip flip

2011-10-01T11:19:00.000-07:00

9 days till we're off to Germany baby!
No beer no Oktoberfest no clubbing NNNO
Turning 18 in Paris!
Cant wait to see the sights ahhhhhhhhhhh
oh gosh i miss everyone already :(

2011-09-30T12:05:00.000-07:00

Youre sleeeeeping haha told you
you couldnt last a night awake in town
:)

i'm afraid you won't understand

2011-09-22T05:47:00.000-07:00

you could be your own spotlight

if life won't wait, I guess it's up to you.

2011-09-21T13:38:00.000-07:00

2011-09-21T00:06:00.000-07:00

won't understand

in the streets of Paris

2011-09-20T23:49:00.000-07:00

You're just running from the truth
But I'm scared of losing you
You are worth too much to lose
Baby if you're still confused
I'm just in love with you

sometimes I get a little stupid

2011-09-18T20:39:00.000-07:00

but love you too much to keep on hurting you

secrets, lies and deceit

2011-09-18T11:28:00.000-07:00

sometimes i feel like
I dont know myself anymore